Thursday, September 30, 2010

That's what you get for scaring me you little brat! But, I'm sorry...

I just had a very intense moment in the stairwell of my building that has left me feeling bad but justified at the same time. I don't really know why I continue to take the stairs when I have a propensity to fall, so I take some partial blame for even being in the stairwell. However, this time I did not fall, I beat up a kid accidentally!

So, the stairwell is equipped with those automatic sensor lights that are supposed to turn on when it detects motion. Well, they must be on the fritz, because when I walked into the stairwell starting on the 3rd floor it was pitch black. I was going down the stairs to the lowest level to get to my car in the garage. So, it only got darker as I descended.


As I was rounding one level to the next, someone jumped out of the shadows behind me and made a screaming sound. Now, if you know my history with my stalker, you'll know that this instantly terrified me and I thought for sure it was him (since he was released from jail last month). It was my natural reaction to defend myself and I instantly turned and kneed the person and then tasered him (yes, I have a taser that I got for self-defense and of course I bring it with me going to the garage!). It was still really dark, but I was quickly realizing the slight outline of the person I just kneed really hard and tasered was that of a very small person. Then I heard sobbing. I wasn't sure what to do, as it was becoming quite clear this person wasn't my stalker, but I still didn't know who it was or why they were screaming at me in a dark stairwell. The only thing I could think to do was to go up to the next level and see if I could prop the door open to get some light in. The only thing I had to wedge in the door was my flip flops, so I did that (leaving me barefoot...ew). Once I got the door open and went back down to see what I could see, I realized it was a small child. Here is where I feel bad. I just beat and tasered a child. It was not intentional and he shouldn't have been in a stairwell scaring people like that! He had crumpled himself up in somewhat of a fetal position against the wall and wouldn't stop crying.

I asked him if he lived there and where, so I could go get his parents or someone to help him. He sniffed a little and said "no, I'll get in trouble". I told him if he was hurt, he needed the help of his parents. Then it gets worse. He said "I peed my pants and I don't want my dad to know." Ugh, feeling really low at this point. He finally squeaked out what unit he lived in and I went to get him help. Luckily, his mom answered the door and I talked to her in the hallway and she came alone to get him. So, at least he didn't have to face his dad with the wet pants.

I feel bad about the fact he was a kid and wet himself, but maybe this will teach him a lesson that you just can't do that! There are some people that may have shot him, stabbed him, or something much worse than tasering him.

This is why I will never have children. They are not worth the trouble they cause!! Ok, well maybe they are, but not for me!

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Tuesday, September 21, 2010

It's true...you never forget how to ride a bike, but....

Was it always this dangerous?!? When I was younger, one of my favorite activities was riding my bike. Granted, I never really got to go far with it. I think the furthest my mom let us ride our bikes was to the Beavercreek Store (it was this little store about 2 miles from my house), but every bike ride seemed like an adventure to me!

Recently, I traded in the spin bike at the gym for some good old fashioned regular biking again. Mostly, because I acquired a bike when my friend Charlie moved away and gave me his! This was probably the best and the worst thing to happen to me....because soon came the many bike misadventures that have led me to my home away from home - urgent care.

Now, I remember the occasional spill as a kid on my bike. A few scraped knees and elbows and some minor head injuries, but I never remember near death experiences! The worst I can remember was once coming home from the dentist with my mouth all numb and drooly from a filling and I was riding my bike and hit the breaks to avoid our dog (Ruffles) and I slid in some gravel. The gravel was the little pebbly kind and it embedded into my knee. My mom had to use tweezers to get the gravel bits out. In hindsight, she probably should have taken me to the doctor to get that cleaned up. I still have a little oval scar from that. Again, it was no near death experience.

Now fast forward to my adult bike riding adventures in San Diego....and the craziness begins! I don't know if it's because I'm rusty on the bike or if it's the city streets I'm not used to, but every bike excursion (which is daily) seems to end in some "incident" that is much more than some gravel bits in the knee.

First was the hammer dropping on my head, which really wasn't an issue with my biking skill, and more related to my unfortunate luck. My first couple rides were nice. I remembered what it was like as a kid and the old adage was true "you never forget how to ride a bike." My confidence may have been prematurely high. On about my third bike ride, I ventured a little further out into unknown territory. I wasn't quite comfortable riding on all the streets yet, so I stuck to the sidewalks. I was biking along feeling all happy and then WHAM! It happened so fast, I was laying there a little scraped and stunned, and wasn't really sure what just occurred. Then I looked down at the sidewalk, which was anything but flat...and realized I ran into a very raised portion of the sidewalk and flipped right off my bike. That's when I learned lesson #1 - pay attention to where I'm riding! That crash didn't really send me to urgent care though, I self diagnosed and tended to my own wounds :)

After that I got a little bolder and decided I really should be riding on the streets. That and people were always yelling at me for being on the sidewalk, apparently it is bad bike etiquette. So, I went on a ride to the mall. I actually had done the ride a couple times before, but usually during the week when it was uneventful (not a lot of people on the road) and both times had been via the sidewalk. This time I was riding on the street like I was supposed to, I guess. However, there was some kind of convention going on and there were cars in droves and people everywhere. This one Jeep was creeping up on me as I rode along and clearly was trying to send me the message he did not want me on the road and was going to do what he could to get me off of it. I was feeling really uncomfortable with him approaching me the way he was, so I went to get off the street and back onto the sidewalk. Somehow as I went to go on the sidewalk I managed to line my front tire up parallel to the lip on the driveway I was riding onto and it was just enough to fling me over and slam me onto the concrete, with the bike landing on top of me. As I landed my head hit hard on the concrete, but thankfully I had my helmet on. My elbow was bleeding a little and my leg hurt, but it seemed I had survived with minimal injury...or so I thought. I had been on my way to the movie theater, so I continued since I thought I was ok. As I was sitting watching the movie, my leg was hurting more and more, and I could see it swelling before my eyes. The bike ride home was unbearable. By the time I got home my leg was twice the size it should be and every part of my body hurt. Plus, I was visibly crooked. My right side was actually a few inches forward of my left. When I went to the chiropractor, she told me she had seen people in horrific car accidents that were in better shape. It took some time to heal from that one! Lesson #2 - approach sidewalks head on or stay off entirely!

I could write an entire novel about the incidents I've had, but in summary I've had a bird fly in my face and cause me to crash, I've hit a tree limb that knocked me right off the bike, I've passed out on the bike and rode right into a building, I got my jacket (tied around my waste) caught in the tire and flung off the rear of the bike, I've been hit by a car, I hit a car.....and those are the highlights of about the first month of biking.

I think the most embarrassing of the incidents was riding into a persons car door. I was riding along 6th street heading into Hillcrest and I was riding on the street, because that section of sidewalk is too small to handle bicyclist and pedestrians. I had always kind of feared someone might open their door in my path, but I hadn't seen it happen to anyone else, so I figured I was safe. The problem is that the street is fairly narrow, so as a rider you try to stay pretty close to the parked cars so you are not impeding traffic, but then that puts you at risk if someone does happen to open their door and not see you you coming. That's what happened to me! That section of road is actually downhill, so I was going a pretty decent speed. I always look to see if there are break lights or any signs someone may have just parked, and I didn't observe that in this case. I think the guy had been sitting in his car for a bit. Anyway, as I approached the door opened and I was right in the path to hit it and couldn't swerve out because there was a oncoming car right along my side that would have hit me if I swerved. So, I ended up slamming right into the guys car door. I actually didn't really get that hurt. Yes, I did crash the bike, but I think I had some magic fairy dust that day, because I managed to land well...that never happens! I thought the guy would be concerned about me, but he was just really pissed. It wasn't my fault though, that is a designated bike area and he should have been looking! At leas that's what the cop said :) Lesson #3 - keep my distance from parked cars!

Until recently, the only accident that caused me severe injury was the "curb" incident. However, in true Debbie fashion, I had to outdo myself and go for the gold. The other night I was riding home from a long ride and I was on the street not the sidewalk. There were cars parked all along me on the right side and then on the other side of the cars was sidewalk, so I didn't have visibility really to what was happening on the sidewalk side of things. As I biked along, all of a sudden this other bike came out of nowhere in between two cars coming off the sidewalk and jumping out in front of me cutting me off. I had no time to divert and crashed right into him. I landed in such an odd way (of course!) that my leg actually landed on the pedal of his bicycle and the pedal embedded itself into my upper leg. It was in there so deep, everyone said not to even try to pull it out, because I could start bleeding out. It hurt so bad! One of the bystanders that saw what happened called the police and the EMT's. They had to pry the bike pedal out of my leg and then they wrapped my leg up and I went to urgent care. I had to get stitches, about 15 of them (not so bad). Of course, being as stubborn as I am, I didn't listen to the doctors orders of not riding my bike for at least a week or two and went out the very next day. I popped a stitch...oops! Although, I think it was a good thing, because after they fixed me back up and I went home my wound was throbbing and burning, which I didn't think was normal. I returned to urgent care (my 3rd visit in 3 days...a record!) and found out that a piece of the bike pedal had actually broken off in my leg and the doctors stitched over it. So, maybe popping the stitch was the best thing I could have done :) Lesson #4 - be a defensive rider!

So, needless to say, it has been very adventurous on the bike thus far, and I've only had it for about 4 months or less. Yes, all these things happened in 4 months!! Nothing keeps me from getting right back in the saddle though. I do have trauma every time I get on the bike, I see visions of me crashing, I fear doors opening, and now I'm always looking in all directions just waiting for that random pop-out...which makes me lose my concentration and crash anyway. Despite the trauma, there is no greater feeling than coasting down a long hill with the wind in my face or pushing myself to get up a steep hill and feeling very accomplished when I get to the top. I love my bike and even though it has caused me pain and suffering, I will never abandon it!

I am hoping to enhance it soon with a bell, basket, and side view mirrors! It'll be very "special".

This post is dedicated to Charlie, for whom I owe all my many bike adventures, and without whom I would have never become the mayor of Kaiser Vandever Medical Offices (urgent care). Thank you, Charlie!

Happy riding!

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Monday, September 20, 2010

Well hello beautiful...oh wait, that's me!

There was once a time when I would pass by a window or a mirror and catch my reflection and my immediate reaction was to sink my head in depression and immediately turn away so I no longer had to face the reality of what I was seeing. It seemed to occur to me most when I saw my reflection just how "disgusting" I was or felt. It was the same when I saw my shadow. It was like ghostbusters when you see the shadow of the Stay Puft Marshmallow Man coming upon you.

Even after I lost weight I still couldn't see my new self, I continued to see the fat girl I always saw. People would compliment me all the time and tell me I looked great, but I would just grin and say "yeah right", because I didn't see it. It didn't matter that my clothes size was going down, my mental image of myself was still that of the fat girl I always new myself to be. It was like that movie Shallow Hal only in reverse. Everyone else could see me as thinner, but that's not what I saw.

Over the last year I've been focusing less on the physical changes and more on my mental changes of adapting to what really is a new life for me. I've started to embrace my new image and with that has come a new attitude.

Although, I may have swung too far in the other direction, because now I think I look at myself too much and enjoy my reflection a little more than I should. I may be a little vain...lol. Seriously, the other day I was walking past a Peet's Coffee shop and I caught my reflection in the window. Somehow, it escaped me that I was standing in front of the window of a Peet's, all I saw was my reflection and I liked it. I stopped for a moment and kind of admired myself and after a few minutes of doing this, I realized where I was standing, and I realized the patrons of Peet's sitting on the other side of the window laughing at my retardation. Although, embarrassing, I had to laugh at myself.

I also enjoy seeing my shadow these days too. I look down at it as I walk and I think "is that really me?"..."where's the rest of it?!" It's nice, because it's really starting to kick in what I've accomplished and I'm finally starting to enjoy it. I've even discovered a new love of clothing. There was once a time I hated the idea of buying clothes and never gave a crap about fashion or looking good. Now, I love to shop (maybe that's a bad thing) and I love thinking about all the cute ways I can pair and match different things. I even discovered I love dresses and skirts! If you know me, you will know that's a big deal!

So, now when I see my reflection or pass by a mirror my reaction isn't to sink my head and run away, it's to say "hello beautiful!", smile, hold my head up, and walk away happy :)


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